By Audrey VanVenRoy
Welp. We’re finally here, aren’t we? The stress is astronomical, the tests are looming over us, and senior year is just around the corner for me. I’m going to be honest with you, I am NOT ready to be an adult. I was definitely not ready to be an adult in the beginning of junior year. And yet, it seems that no one is. No one is entirely prepared for what the world will throw at us next and what society will do once we reach that legal age that determines that we know what the heck we’re doing now and we can make our own decisions. I am terrified and I honestly don’t want to keep moving forward like this. I crave that youthness of childhood, that immature innocence that our minds possessed back then, but despite my wishes, my prayers, I keep going. It’s the only thing I can do. Life is not going to stop for me, and I’m going to keep aging, year by year by year. And so, I sit here, typing this blog piece out, trying to make sense of my feelings.
It’s hard to remember how I’ve changed. I feel like I’ve always changed, so much so that it feels like I’ve stayed the same. It’s ironic, but it feels like I’ve always been this way, even though I haven’t. Maybe I haven’t changed that much, but how can I be sure? Even so, I have done many things this past year. I believe that I will finish the semester with at least one class with an A grade, which is great. I’ve improved at being able to write longer pieces, mainly because of being in the Student Blog and taking college English. This is a very valuable skill, especially in college. As for challenges I overcame, I have gone through many, but as for this school year, I think I’ve just overcome one of the many challenges of life, which is another year of surviving. That’s worth a celebration in itself, so cheers. A moment that I am proud of is that I was able to complete this many blog pieces along with presenting a piece that means a lot to me. In addition to that, I’ve made many connections through this blog, so I am grateful for the chance to be able to do this. Over time, I will slowly continue to grow and grow, and maybe I’ll be able to become a person that I can be proud of. As the future slowly looms over us, we will begin to reflect on what will be next. As for me, I am a junior, so my only hope is that I will be able to graduate next year after my senior year. I will likely be preparing to go to college after graduating, and after that, potentially get a job to sustain myself. I only hope that I will be able to gain a comfortable life.
And so, we end it here. But life will not be ending for us, as time drags on by. During times like these, we may desire advice on what to do when moving forward through school life, and to that I say: I do not know. I am a teenager just like you guys, and to be quite frank with you, I don’t know what’s going to happen. I’m not sure if I’m making the right decisions and I am definitely not sure what I want to do with my life. However, I can tell you that the main thing that I do no matter what, something I recommend to everyone who reads this, is moving forward, despite any obstacle that obstructs your path. It may seem hard at times, and maybe you get a really bad final
grade in your college course, but despite all these challenges, our only option is to keep moving forward, no matter what. I promise that life will never punish you for continuing to move forward, and good things will arrive to you always, even if the bad things come along as well.
