By Paloma Swick
I walked into a bedroom decorated with pink color and I felt tears coming into my eyes. Wait.. I didn’t want to cry, something like that would be pretty pathetic. It was just, something special was coming to an end soon and I did not want to say goodbye to it.
“Oh.. hey Lyra,” my girlfriend Lux said to me quietly.
“Hey,” I said with a little more enthusiasm.
“Sorry to break things to you so quick, I just recently got the new you know?” Lux looks at the ground, “ Hehe, this is kind of awkward.”
“It’s okay, don’t worry!” I say, “ We all have to live our life. We can still keep in touch with each other.”
“Yeah that’s true, we’ll both be pretty busy with college though.”
“I mean that’s true but I’ll still text you. We can still be friends right?”
“Yeah of course,” says Lux, “ Oh you wouldn’t mind if I dated other girls right? I mean I wasn’t thinking we’d just go on break..”
“It’s fine no worries, I’m not that possessive,” I tell her. She can date who she wants as long as she doesn’t do it before we break up officially. I was still sad we were breaking up though.
“Yeah I just didn’t want to break up with you over text, so that’s why I invited you here,” says Lux.
“We can still keep in touch though right..?” I ask.
“Yeah of course, just not as much as we usually do,” says Lux, “ As I said over text, I’m moving to a different state so we won’t be able to see each other.”
“If only I wasn’t already registered for the college here,” I said.
“ I think it’s too late anyway, plus the college I’m going to is really hard to get into,” she sits down on the foot of her bed.
“Yeah I guess you were always smarter than me,” I sit down next to her, “ So are we officially breaking up now?”
“Yeah I guess we are,” says Lux.
“So are you leaving next week?”, I ask.
“Yeah,” says Lux, “ This is kind of awkward.”
“I can leave if you want..” I say though I don’t want to leave.
“Yeah I think that’s best, you can come back later if you’d like.” Lux stands up.
“Okay then, we’ll see you something this week then.” I walk outside into my car and then start crying. I guess it’s not that weird to cry after a break up.. Except if anyone knew they’d call me a crybaby.
A week later I came back to my ex’s house, and some of her friends were there. She has been kind of avoiding me for a while so I was a little nervous, though she invited me over since she was leaving the next day.
She waved to me, and I walked over to her.
“Hey, sorry if I was avoiding you, I just felt kind of awkward.”
“Oh no, it’s okay don’t worry.” I say. The realization hits me that this is the last time I might ever see her in person again.
“Well, I’ll text you we can still have a relationship, just a different kind!” she says.
“That’s okay with me.” I say.
The rest of the time at her house she is kind of distant, but we are not dating anymore, so I guess it makes sense. I wonder if she moved on already or not. Oh she probably has, I see her kind of flirting with this other girl.
It makes me kind of upset since we broke up like a week ago, but she can do what she wants. As long as I keep it to myself I think it’s fine for me to have these feelings.
Then it was time for me to say goodbye to her for good.
“When am I gonna see you again?” I ask.
“I don’t know really know, sorry how things ended out,” she says, “ You should probably try to move on though, it wasn’t really that serious of a relationship, you know?”
“I guess so, but I mean like even if we never dated I’d still miss you.” I say hesitantly.
“Don’t be afraid to date other people when I’m gone though, okay?” she smiles at me.
“Okay- I won’t,” I say, though I’m not ready to start dating again yet.
“Well I guess this is goodbye then,” she hugs me quickly and then waves to me. I hug her back and then leave. That went by way to quickly. I got into my car and started crying again. It was kind of stupid right? Although, this was a normal way to feel wasn’t it?
She moved on a lot quicker than me huh? Oh well, I just hope that she’s only letting go of our romantic relationship and not our relationship itself.
Authors Note:
The reason that I wrote this piece was because I needed to write a creative piece for student blog, and I did not have any that I could share so I just wrote one based on an idea that I came up with and kind of liked. I think what I like the most about this piece is the way the characters turned out. I just hoped to convey a feeling of mild sadness.
